Back after 2 years... with some thoughts

Hi Guys, I'm so bored and bursting with ideas that I guess my only outlet will be Blogging ( Emphasis on the 'guess'). But regardless, I'm back, after 2 long years. To people who are also in Sec 4, good luck for your 'O's and 'N's.

Now on to my thoughts.. Here's a question (a penny for your thought? In the Chat column):

Have you ever woken up and realized that all your life you have been influenced? Be it directly or indirectly? Trust me, I've had that thought for ages now.. Don't worry, I'm not gonna start some boring philosophy speech, but I just wanted you to think about them. So DO think about them before you read on (You might realize things that you may not have realized at all!)

Wondering why I asked such a random question? Cos' I just realized that many of us are a bunch of duckling following the goose. Whose the goose, you ask? America, of course! Admit it, through Globalization, literally the whole world is following in America's footsteps. Yet again, don't fret! I'm not going to go into politics and economics. In fact, I just wanted to blog about an issue that most teenagers have to deal with: love. As you know America has this concept of dating, where guys go out with girls and spend time with each other etc. And through dating they 'fall in love', or so they call it. Is this REALLY love, to fall in love with every girl you date? Lets face it, its just INFATUATION! Or possibly Lust. P.S. For Americans who happen to read this, I don't mean any offence or discrimination. I just wanted to share my personal thoughts.

Right now, almost the whole world follows the concept of dating, saying 'I Love You' to just about every guy/girl they date and kissing them. Ask any philosopher or religious person and they would say True Love only happens ONCE (or possibly twice) in a person's life. Think about it, people. If you continue this concept of dating, no one will be able to differentiate love from infatuation and lust. So what does it mean to TRULY love, you may ask. Well, I'll break it up into 3 simple points:

1. Genuine/Honesty - Being yourself and liking her for herself. It's not love if you only like her for her beauty. IF she is not so beautiful but has a heart of gold, and you like her for that, then it is true love.
2. Intimacy/Passion -Don't get the wrong idea! It just mean you have to be close to her and never let her hand go, esp. when she needs you. Let the person know that you truly care and love her/him.
3. Commitment - What is love without commitment? Having a girlfriend every week is NOT love,and don't cheat others or yourself saying it is! This also means being able to overcome challenges in your love life or solving conflicts between yourself.

If you have all this, then you ARE truly in love. If you don't, well don't claim it is Love. Trust, me true love does pay off, so stop lusting after her and only love her if you think she has a good heart!

ONE DAY TO RESULTS!!!

OMG!! Just one more day till the release of my results...I am soooo going to die! Right now, I just wish I can remain in IP. I just wish my are marks good enough so that I can get the subject objects that I wish for (Hint* Option A-Triple Science, Double Maths and the other compulsory options). Man, I'm soo friggin' depressed and I'm freaking out! Tomorrow will either be doomsday or cloud nine! Or maybe just neutral. Until then, I have to wait for the next 11-12 hours more till my results are released. Please God, make me stay in IP! I don't want to be in Express!!!

Final Year Exams!!!

OMG! Final Year Exams are starting tomorrow! 12 hours before DOOM!! After 7 months, I'm back!! Sorry for the delay all you people out there! Completely forgot I had a blog..EXAM STRESS! To all people who I know, love and care about, you know who you are, GOOD LUCK!! I'm so nervous for the exams...ARRGGGHHH!!! What am I doing! Blogging! Need to go back and mug! Will be back on Friday, with a whole review of my experience during the FYEs. Till then, signing off, You Beloved Zufieboi!

Accidentzzz

For the past 4 days, I was in Johor Baru, Malaysia, staying over at my uncle's house. Back there, 2 days ago, my cousins and I were playing soccer at about 11.30 p.m. That was when tragedy struck. I was running after the ball so as to pass it over to one of my teammates. I was running and the road was wet and slippery. Then, I slipped over and fell face first onto the ground. My jeans tore and there was a hole in it. I only thought about the wound that was on my leg upon falling down. But then, I realised there was another source of pain; my wrist. It seems that upon falling, I broke my fall on my hand instead of my palm and pain just shot through my hand. I was in so much pain. As I was wearing my watch, I could'nt really see what had happened to my wrist. But upon reaching the house and removing my watch, I saw that there was a slight dent at where my hand and my arm seemed to have been connected a while ago. I could also feel the throbbing on my at my wrist and there seemed to be a slight swelling there.

Upon showing my mother and my other relatives, they were all wondering what had happened to by left arm. Thank God, it was my left arm and not my right. But it still hurt badly all the same. My relatives then concluded that it wasn't broken or fractured, as I was still able to move my fingers and I didn't scream my heart out upon the news of the injury. 2 days has passed, and my wrist feels much better, although it still hurts and it is still in the same awkward position. Ican't move my wrist independently though, because whenever I move my wrist, my elbow seems to follow. I can also do simple tasks such as pressing and typing, but I can't carry or do anything else with my hand. Hopefully, my wrist will heal soon, atleast by the time school reopens. Mandatory stuff such as bathing or using the toilet has also become such a big problem.

Life Sciences Symposium

Throughout this entire week will be the "Life Sciences Symposium Week" in my school. For this very event, many schools from around Singapore will be coming to see the Symposium. And that day turns out to be today?! I and my friends are in-charge of a booth. We had to spend 8 1/2 hours of the day standing there and explaining everything about the different forms of cloning. Yeah, we were in-charge of cloning. Not only that. For this entire week, students from overseas will be staying over at our boarding school! Furthermore, they will be having classes with us! Fortunately or unfortunately, we have 4 Indonesian transfer girls in our class, and this will continue for and entire week! Imagine having been in a boys schools for a year and suddenly having girls in your class! Never mind. We have been in our best behaviour yesterday and I think we can continue it for another 3 days.

The Exams have Started!

Today was the first day of exams. It turned out to be Mother Tongue. The exam was compo writing so I just chose the easiest question, translated as 'write about a trip that you can remember'. So I decided to write about my recent trip to Malaysia for Overseas Enrichment Program. Fortunately or unfortunately, I had to come home after the exam as I am unwell. I am feeling better now after some rest. For people who have been waiting for me to update my blog, my sincere apologies. But from now onwards, I will update it once every week and look at the posts 3 times a week. Please do leave a message whenever you see my blog! I have nothing much to say in this post. I just wish that I get good grades as I always do as Mother Tongue is one of the subjects I score well in. I just completed my Maths Exam yesterday. I spent my weekends studying really hard for it. And the price, I knew the answers to most of the questions on the paper. I hope that I get atleast 35 out of 50 :D

Issues...

Many people have any issues. Some people have more than others. Some people can have a few, but are easily depressed by them. I have many issues too. Most of my issues are usually outside the walls of my home. But last night, I had a great quarell with my brother. Ever since young, I have always been submissive to whatever my brother asks. But lately, I have been thinking that he is trying to take advantage of me. I am 14 now. For the past 13 years I have always listened to my brother. But these days, I have a sense of ownership over my properties and over my own personal space. I think I have let my brother seep into too much of my life. I need to keep him at a distance. I need to tell him that I can't and I won't do some things that he insists I do for him, but in a patient way to as not to create unwanted problem. So, I decided that I tell him that I have changed and I am not and will not be used unnecessarily. I thought he would take it well, but he made and uproar put of this issue. We had great quarells and we shouted when I didn't do something that I was asked for. Was it wrong to not listen to him anymore? Was it wrong to tell him to not 'use' me anymore? This blog is the only place I can place my doubts and dilemmas. But I do not require advice and answers regarding this. I still do not hate my brother. In fact, I love him just as I love everyone of my family members. I can't stay angry at the people I love for long. But last night, my brother ask me not to talk to him forever. How long is forever? I hope he won't be angry at me for long.

It has been approximately 2 weeks and I am yet to talk to my brother. I don't know if it is good for 2 brothers living in the same house to not talk to each other. But it has made me realise that ever since I have decided not to talk to him, he does not bother or disturb me anymore. I feel that it is better that we came to this decision as I don't have to be tormented by him. But I don't know if it is good to feel this way. Am I making a big mistake? Is it wrong for me to do this? Am I commiting the most biggest sin I ever have? Only time can answer my questions, hopefully.