Issues...

Many people have any issues. Some people have more than others. Some people can have a few, but are easily depressed by them. I have many issues too. Most of my issues are usually outside the walls of my home. But last night, I had a great quarell with my brother. Ever since young, I have always been submissive to whatever my brother asks. But lately, I have been thinking that he is trying to take advantage of me. I am 14 now. For the past 13 years I have always listened to my brother. But these days, I have a sense of ownership over my properties and over my own personal space. I think I have let my brother seep into too much of my life. I need to keep him at a distance. I need to tell him that I can't and I won't do some things that he insists I do for him, but in a patient way to as not to create unwanted problem. So, I decided that I tell him that I have changed and I am not and will not be used unnecessarily. I thought he would take it well, but he made and uproar put of this issue. We had great quarells and we shouted when I didn't do something that I was asked for. Was it wrong to not listen to him anymore? Was it wrong to tell him to not 'use' me anymore? This blog is the only place I can place my doubts and dilemmas. But I do not require advice and answers regarding this. I still do not hate my brother. In fact, I love him just as I love everyone of my family members. I can't stay angry at the people I love for long. But last night, my brother ask me not to talk to him forever. How long is forever? I hope he won't be angry at me for long.

It has been approximately 2 weeks and I am yet to talk to my brother. I don't know if it is good for 2 brothers living in the same house to not talk to each other. But it has made me realise that ever since I have decided not to talk to him, he does not bother or disturb me anymore. I feel that it is better that we came to this decision as I don't have to be tormented by him. But I don't know if it is good to feel this way. Am I making a big mistake? Is it wrong for me to do this? Am I commiting the most biggest sin I ever have? Only time can answer my questions, hopefully.